sahur pagi tadi dgn dia dan en.khambeng aka mr.basten.masak ikan bakar,daging goreng sos(yang en.kahambeng kutuk ..liat gilerrrrr..hello tu bhgian yg ada urat?urat ke..ntah aku pun tatau),telur masin dan sup telur.dia makan banyak gak..walaupun waktu berbuka dah makan nasi ayam.kemdian roti jala dgn kari ayam serta puding jagung selepas solat terawih.

sengaja masak lambat...nak mintak dia tolong masak sekali tadi.dia tolong masak daging masak sos..kejap.lepas makan sempat baling2 kusyen kecik kt dia.libas2 blanket ungu MAS kt dia.tampar2 dia.GOD.I REALLY MISS HIM.i love him so much...i love him too much.sempat ajak dia dtg berbuka next week.nak masak ape blom tau.dia tanak salmon cream pasta sbb creamy.nnti tanya dia lagi dia nak makan ape.berpk nak masak briyani atau nasi ujan panas dgn kurma daging.dia suka kurma.berminyak dan berlemak jugak.tau kena jaga kesihatan...ntah la.sekali sekala masak utk dia.

berbual dgn en.khambeng..byk yg dibualkan.utk en.khambeng i need to tell u something that i forgot to tell on the phone:yes.i want to hold his hand when we're alone.i want to hug him.i want to rest my head on his shoulder.i want to fight with him about silly things.i want to kiss him on the cheek.i want to share all my problems with him.but the most important thing of all...i want him to know that i love him so so so so so so soooooooooooo much.aku sayang dia.i want his love.that's everyhing that matters now.

p/s:perbualan dgn en.khambeng td 1hour 10 minutes.the longest phone call i ever made with my cell phone.en.khambeng...we need to talk..4 pasang mata.

menulis dari meja research lab pada jam 7.32am.gilerrrrrrr..pagi sesangat.i x rajin nak dtg lab pepagi buta sabtu nih.weekdays pun dtg 930am.actually i ade baito/partime pegi sampling air sungai harini utk projek bersih kan Tasik Sanaru.so sbb i buat research pasal nak bersihkan tasik yg water quality is the worst in Japan tu so kena la ikot kan.dpt duit pun..walaupun keje x sampai 10 minit..2kali lak tu.so overall keje 20minit je + meeting 1.5jam..sume skali keje x smpai 2jam pun.ntahla duit dpt byk mana.tapi diorg ckp dlm 3000￥ gak.dekat RM100 utk 2 jam.hehehh.lumayan kan.so sementara nak tggu 2nd sampling jam 11 so i lepak lab je.malas nk balik umah.bukan bleh makan pun.

i team ngan sorang ass. lecturer yg dinicknamedkan oleh student as Yoda...yes Yoda from that Star Wars.hakhak.sbb orgnye rendah dan obes.well dia oke..byk bercakap.walaupun i hnya menyahut skali skala.i kan kucing siam..malu.*matila kucing pun nak ade Siam gak.*sila semak entry yang ada Michelle Yeoh*.i and that ass. lecturer kena amik air kat satu sungai ni yang kt M'sia haruslah dipanggil longkang besar tapi air ciput je.jenuh i dok goyang2 baldi tu...masuk skit je.dahla nk kena amik 6L.*mrasa feeling amik2 air dari perigi kt kampung masa kecik2 dulu.nostalgia kejap.

sbb kena berkumpul jam 630 pagi so i bgn kul 3am td..masak for sahur sbb semalam kul 8lebih dah tedo.bgn kul 3am td masak and basuh pggan mangkuk solat isya sume then sahur pastu bloghopping smpai kul 615 pastu ke skolah.waaaaa...ngantuk seh.ptg nnti after 2pm nak ke umah sorg akak ni..kitorg ade projek buat Roti Jala utk moreh terawih mlm ni.pastu i ingt nak ajak Dia and En. Khambeng dtg sahur skali pagi esok.ingt nak masak ikan bakar.

i ngantuk ah.tedo kt sofa lab ni karang sure lah terbabas smpai tghari kan......

ade midyear presentation ptg td..1pm-3pm.sakit kaki bediri.we made an A0 sized poster then wait for the lecturers to come at our board,start explaining things we done then after that there were Qs.overall i think i did OK.quite smooth.ade 2-3 lecturer yg prihatin and tnya pasal if i got a job yet.kt sini setiap tahun ada lecturer yg jaga pasal job seeking.by the end of the year dia akan cuba dapatkan keje for everyone so xdela siswazah menganggur kat sini.

malam tadi from 7 my lab ada buat dinner reservation kt japanese restoren.biasa nya event dinner and minum2 ni akan dibuat after event..such as midyear presentation td.we had sashimi,shrimp tempura,baked salmon,futomaki sushi,okoge with sato imo,BBQd hotate and grape sherbet for dessert.diorg minum beer and shochu(japanese wine)..i minum 3 gelas oren jus je.and one of my lecturer yg dah tua and ada penyakit minum teh je.belanja makan td for 13 people was 70000￥.yesss 2100RM..gilerrrrkan.both my lecturers gave 15000￥or 450RM so the rest of the bill was divided by 11 of us..so sorg bayar 4000￥=120RM.yesss i had to pay that sum to eat that.sbb tu i malas nk ikut nomikai...mahal.mkn ciput je.x sedap sgt lak tuh...

nothing much happened today but a fren buzz me on the YM.i was like 'WHERE HAVE U BEEN GAL?'.well i found out that we both balik kampung to Malaysia and then she joined the lab trip to Okinawa.mak makan hati nok..dia mrasa gak ke Okinawa.org ckp cantik.skrg i nk ke Korea je.angan2 nak ke Europe xleh.so Korea je yg dekat.so before i back for good i plan nk ke Korea.

btw esok ade Chukan Happyo or midyear presentation.it suppossed to be HUGE but i mcm biasa rilek serilek rilek nye.dah siap poster and berlatih 2-3 kali.pasni i kena baca je byk2 artikel yg lecturer i bagi and hope those lecturers x soal byk2 and susah2.i pasrah je.diorg soal i jawab..i x reti i jwb i x tau.*matila sumer x tau.i never care about the grade.asal bole grad sudehh.anyway i landed a job with a good prospect and money.so i guess im good.*matila verangan hebat.

called Atun last night.masih di Ipoh.but back to KL today.maybe skrg dh kt Cyber.semoga ko tabah noks.

bebuka 2-3 hari ni ngan vanilla pudding and kari ayam.busy and malas nk masak.esok malam ada Nomikai ngan bebudak lab...sempena berjaya(?) abeskan chukanhappyo.*matila org pegi terawih i pegi minum2..i x minum ye.i minum oren jus je smpai kembong perot.btw dah slalu sgt x pegi so diorg ajak kali ni..and diorg dh siap amik seafood kos so i bleh mkn.so pegi jelah.beramah mesra katanya.but i tetap setia ngan s**** tau.i x suke Japs anyway.*matila konfesi.

okela.nak tedo.ingt nk baca sket artikel2 and wat sitsumon taisaku(strategy menjawab/menjangka soalan) but malas..nk tedo.esok pagi baru baca/buat.pas sahur.td tedo x nyenyak.sakit leher.

i'm in love with Samsons

watch the season premiere Desperate Housewives last night and I LOVE IT.been waiting since ages.dont want to do the recap so why dont u guys read it here.well it's been raining here too..from dawn to dusk.i love 2 scenes from this episode:

1. Gaby talking to Carlos about her getting to raise their child alone and they fighting 'who's get the kid for christmas'.i could feel the woman/mother in her.then the sped of her car while Carlos trying to speak about himself.brilliant.just like ol' Gaby we knew.
2. Susan visiting and caring for Mike who is in coma.it reminds me of dia.sometime i just want dia to be like that.so i can lay next to him.kiss him gudnite.shave his mostache.i love his ciput goatee tho.hold his hand.play with his hair.eventho he gonna lay there like patung cendana.but i want him so bad.but actually...everytime i see people dying in the tv..i cried becoz i dunno if he die..how i gonna be holding it up.the world without him.i cant even think about how i gonna live without him.eventho after 10 years or 5 or 3 or 1..we might not gonna see each other anymore when i'm going back to M'sia but i know somewhere he is alive and happy..it's okay to me.becoz i hope someday we'll meet again.i love u so much s****.i love u too much.

gtg sleep.sahur at 4am...alone.

1st day of Ramadhan bebuka ramai2 kt umah junior 2nd year.ada kari ayam,ayam mask merah,nasi tomato(yg sedappp),green salad,pisang.i made kuih Talam Nyonya and Buah Melaka.pas makan solat terawih ramai2.

2nd day of Ramadhan bukak kt lab ngan grape juice.harini ada presentation's simulation.then sume senior bagi advice utk baikkan poster..what to put on what to cut loose what to say what Qs to expect from lectures etc.end up kena betulkan poster sikit then kena buat text for the presentation so senior bole tolong betulkan ayat.btw diorg puji i sbb pendek dan padat.i was the quickest of them all..3min29sec.bebudak lain around 4min.i ingtkan i yg paling hampeh.dgn nihongo yg ntah ape2.terkasima sekejap.lepas balik umah..panaskan makanan sahur semalam.then tedo..kunun2 nk bgn at 230am buat keje and prepare sahur..but xleh tedo nyenyak lak.risaukan poster........x tedo la pas sahur nnti.terawih pun x wat kot mlm ni.busy gilaaaaa.or supossed too.k got to go sleep..

Waoke up at 10.46am today.After mengeliat sikit..on the pc.Got an offline message from my besfren Atun this morning around 9.36am.kt bawah ni is the message.(sorry Ton i pulished ur message without permission.)

atun (2006/09/24 9:35:46): B
atun (2006/09/24 9:35:58): i'm not around these few days
atun (2006/09/24 9:36:01): balik kampung
atun (2006/09/24 9:36:05): my mom nak operate
atun (2006/09/24 9:36:15): and her condition agak kritikal
atun (2006/09/24 9:36:22): pray for her plis
atun (2006/09/24 9:36:40): i'm scared and pasrah
atun (2006/09/24 9:36:41):

patutla Ton x online semalam and not even updated her blog.i guessed maybe she went back to her sister's place since today is the 1st fasting day.maybe balik umah akak dia for sahur and bebuka sama2.i suka  1st besahur and bebuka with love ones..frens and families.thus the sahur dgn dia semalam and bebuka dgn sumer org ptg ni.

masa baca offline message from Atun neh..i kinda begenang airmata jap.sama2la kita berdoa agar ibu Atun selamat operate dan kembali sihat seperti dulu.

to Aton:ur mother gonna be fine.tabahkan hatimu.be ready for anything.i'll always be there for u.i love u.

while writing this i was 20 min fasting.it's 4.34am in japan.well today went to airport to say goodbye to friends who flyed back to malaysia for good.no tears were involved.even at a point i felt a lil bit 'sebak'..hmm not so.bcoz i definitely will see them again in the future..maybe 6months in the future.

bertolak jam 630 pagi dan sampai di Chubu International Airport at around 9.well we stopped at R&R somewhere along the highway and had breakfast..bihun goreng.the MH057 departed at 11am sharp.then we went for pakistani food in Nagoya then headed to the Nagoya Mosque for Zohor and Asar.arrived in hometown at around 630.most of the time i was sleeping at the back.i didnot slept last night.

he backed from the soccer tournament.placed 4th this year..just like last year..if i'm not mistaken.we had sahur together.i thought he wont came after along journey..he might be tired or ate somewhere along the way.but he came.masak sup daging,sayur goreng,ikan gelama goreng and sambal ikan bilis.well  ingtkan dia penat ..balik trus tedo..x dtg.tp dia ckp nk dtg but nk tgk bola dulu.. so abes je Reading-Man Utd around 320 dia sampai.btw the match ended with a draw 1-1.tggu subuh at 414 am then baru tedo katanya.i love him..i need to tell him.

ok..got to crash the futon.btw dh tedo td kejap..from between 930-1am.ok folks..selamat berpuasa.gudnite.

Love Compatibility of Scorpio with Scorpio

When you meet another Scorpio, you may not like each other at first. In fact, you'll probably dislike each other. You can be mirrors to each other, and you may not like seeing yourself so closely. You'll be intensely attracted to each other - not that either of you know any other way to be attracted - but you may be astounded by just how intense you are when seen through another Scorpio's eyes. At times, the emotions will be so extreme that you'll both need to step away from the relationship, getting some fresh air from new people or experiences.

Definitely!i need fresh air.i need space.but i'm not giving him up yet.i'm not letting him go yet.i have to tell him.will i have guts?i dunno.

why can't i breath whenever i think about you

Dear Friends,

i know i've been bragging about how i was so tired and fed up and frustrated with him and i thought i was ready to let him go.but damn,when i saw his face i know deep inside i love him sooo bad,it hurts.i will not let him go..forever.i love him sooo much and i will always be even till death draw us apart.if u ask me what i see in him or if u ask me to list 10 things i love about him..i dont even sure if i could give u 3.but deep inside i'm so freaking crazy in love with him.everytime i saw him i know: GOD,I LOVE THIS MAN.i know things gonna be so complicated but i cant help it.i love him.and from now on i want to be the best i can be with him.no matter what.i will always love him.

thank you for your support my dear friends.thank you for listening.thank you for advices.thank you for everything.

i love u all for loving me for loving him

ANTM Cycle 7 E1--Model Stereotype

i love AJ

AJ as the Casting Couch Model

Ramadhan semakin hampir.saya sgt teruja.saya sudah pun memikirkan juadah utk 1st day of Ramadhan.mungkin 1st Iftar akan di buat kat umah junior thn 2.maka saya bercadang utk memasak kuih sahaja.saya bercadang utk masak Roti Jala dgn Kari Ayam,kuih Talam Nyonya dan kuih Buah Melaka.bercadang mahu mencuba rehearsal Roti Jala esok malam.this will be my 1st try.moga-moga menjadi.kemungkinan besar akan memasak sahaja di rumah junior tersebut.mungkin membuat kuih Talam Nyonya dirumah sahaja pada waktu pagi kerana agak memakan masa.tambahan pula saya tak mahu membawa byk barang ke rumah junior.harus pulang ke rumah utk bersiap di waktu petang.utk che Eton here's the recipe for kuih Talam Nyonya:

Talam Nyonya

Bahagian hijau:

6 cawan air pandan(kisar daun pandan bersama air sehingga halus kemudian tapis)

1 cawan gula

3/4 cawan tepung kacang hijau(green peas flour--cuba cari di kedai ice-cream supply--saya menggunakan tpg yg dibungkus oleh Butterwoth Ice Cream Supply)

1/8 sd teh bikarbonat soda

pewarna hijau

Bahagian putih:

5 cawan santan

3/4 cawan gula

1/2 cawan tepung kacang hijau(seperti di atas)

1/4 sd teh garam

1/8 sd teh bikarbonat soda

Cara-cara:

1.Bancuh kedua-dua adunan di dalam periuk berasingan.Biar semua sebati dan tidak ada ketulan.

2.Panaskan di atas api sederhana dan kacau sentiasa sehingga likat dah 'mendidih'(gelembung2 udara muncul di permukaan)**hendaklah dilakukan pada masa yang sama.

3.Sendukkan bahagian hijau dan putih berselang seli sehingga habis ke dalam loyang.

4.Ambil lidi atau garfu dan corakkan.kemudian biarkan sejuk dan keras sebelom dipotong.*anda akan mendapat corak 'swirl' yang cantik apabila di potong.

Selamat mencuba.Saya akan upload kan gambar pada 1hb Ramadhan nanti.

Do'a Malaikat jibril Menjelang Ramadhan " "Ya Allah tolong abaikan puasa ummat Muhammad, apabila sebelum memasuki bulan Ramadhan dia tidak melakukan hal-hal yang berikut: * Tidak memohon maaf terlebih dahulu kepada kedua orang tuanya (jika masih ada); * Tidak berma'afan terlebih dahulu antara suami istri; * Tidak berma'afan terlebih dahulu dengan orang-orang sekitarnya. Maka Rasulullah pun mengatakan Amiin sebanyak 3 kali. Dapat kita bayangkan, yang berdo'a adalah Malaikat dan yang meng-amiinkan adalah Rasullullah dan para sahabat, dan dilakukan pada hari Jum'at. karenanya melalui pesan ini saya memohon maaf jika slama ini saya memiliki kesalahan, baik yang tidak di sengaja maupun yang di sengaja, semoga kita dapat menjalani semuanya dengan khusyuk, amin.

Kepada pembaca blog mak yg beberapa kerat nih.Mak nk mintak maaf salah silap terkasar bahsa sume ye.Mak sedar kelaseran mak 2-3 menjak nih.Semoga kita mendapat berkat di bulan Ramadhan.

 mak tertarik dgn beberapa tajuk akhbar harini.mak kupas 2 citer jelah.mak malas nk toles.asal ada entry je..voley?

1. coup d'etat  in Thailand--mak bgn awal harini..kul 8.kunun nak pegi skolah awal tapi kul 10 jugak baru smpai lab.dah bgn awal kan so on a tv sbb mak suka tgk rancangan Tokudane FujiTv  ;ala2 MHI tp lagi bes.masa mak on tv tuh dia tgh air berita pasal rampasan kuasa kat Thailand.mak ternganga kejap.lepas tuh mak search news on the net for more info.owhh rupe2nye coup d'etat ni mmg biasa kt Thailand.the last was back in 1991.mak rasa mmg patut pun diorg wat camtu kan.kes kat selatan Thailand tu pun masih x setel2 lagi plus Thaksin tu pun byk kontrovesi..kes famili dia x bayar tax + media controlling etc.baru2 ni pun ada lagi kes bom.takutlah nk pegi jln2 kt sana.kat Thai ada bombing kt Indonesia ada bombing ..mak takutla.mak dah plan nk jln2 Bangkok/Phuket/Bali bila ada masa nnti.tapi dah mcm2 plak kan..dah x selamat.mak syukur sgt M'sia masih xde bombing2 nih.well mak bukan expert nak kupas citer ni kan.tapi bg mak kalo election pun xleh nak percaya betul ke x..so coup d'etat ni mcm ok gakla utk restore the power kan.*matila student engineering becerita pasal politik dunia.
2. Kes student UTAR kena ragut henpon kt LRT Masjid Jamek(dlm Utusan tulis LRT dkt jln masjid jamek..so mak assume jelah Masjid Jamek..voley?)sampai masuk hospital koma bagai.mak rasa takut plak nk jln2 KL sorg.mcm kat mana pun x selamat.ish takutlah.lepas tu mak baca kt blog sorg ni dia citer kedai member dia kena samun..siap parang kt tengkok lagi haaa..kowaiii.giler ape..ehhh.pesal jahat sgt manusia skrg ni.mcm xde keje lain bleh buat.pegi la keje construction site ke ape ke.sekurang-kurang dapat duit halal kalo Muslim and xla hidup dlm keadaan x sedap hati..berhati2 dlm setiap gerak geri gitu kan.mak x paham la mentaliti org2 samun ni.
3. Graduan terbaik menoreh bayar pinjaman--mak sujuds pada pompuan tu.dia sanggup pegi menoreh utk bayar pinjaman PTPTN dia.sedangkan yg belajar tggi dpt keje besa pun yg ofkos ade duit ni kan..x bayar pun pinjaman MARA tuh.pinjaman MARA tu utk org Melayu tapi tetap diorg xnak bayar balik kan.manala anak bangsa nak maju.**matila mak guna biasiswa JPA shopping bagai...ada hati nak lecture org kan.hakhak.well ader org bgtau mak sistem bayar balik pinjaman MARA tu x bekesan.nak bayar kena g cari MARA.mak rasa ni bukan salah satu pihak je..salah MARA dan peminjam MARA sendiri.dok mintak utang di angin lalu je..sasah la org wat dek je.cube pegi umah ngan along parang panjang sumer..sure diorg bayar kan.hakhahak.mak dgr org ckp aje so mak xleh la sesedap hati je munuduh kan.
4. Ibu repot anak tanam janin di belakang umah.mak sujuds lagi skali pada Ibu tersebut.ibu mana x sayang anak kan tapi anak tuh dah sasah wat salah..mak dia x kaverina dah..mak sendrik yg repot polis.heiii org2 sekarang..pandai buat pandai la tanggung.tulah nak buat tapi tatau nak pakai kondom.dah mengandung buang plak anugerah Allah tu.kalo tanak bagi je kt org nak.belambak org nak anak tau.sampai sanggup lari anak org dr hospital pun ade.*matila berita panas thn lepas.mak pun nak.btw mak bukan nak galak kan org nk pre-marital sex kan.masing2 dah besar panajng ada akal.masing2 free to choose their own way.jgn dok libat org lain yg x berdosa dahla.anak tu aper pun tatau.

okla panjang plak mak dok bertazkirah kan.dah dekat nak Ramadhan ni marilah kita sama2 insaf.*mak trus capai telekong dudok tahiyat akhir.btw mak paling suke Ramadhan.mak mmg excited tggu Ramadhan every year.yg paling mak suke bila masa Waktu Berbuka di main kan kt tv sambil mak sebuk tolong emak mak buat kuih or lauk utk berbuka..mak suke lagu dia..rasa syahdu plak.dah 4 thn mak x dgr.mak rindu berpuasa di M'sia.thn ni mak last puasa ngan 'dia'.mak sedih.

since i'm back from Malaysia i had a celebrity crush on Bams Samsons atau Bambang Reguna Bukit.kiutkan nama dia ada Bukit.i rasa dia kiut lah dlm videoclip Kenangan Yang Terindah.pastu sore dia pun merdu.yess.i like guys with some extra baggage(mcm dinyatakan kt dlm myspace)+goate/misai ciput.misai ala2 Datuk K i x tanak.perut bak mengandung 13bulan pun i tanak.*laki sapa tatau ngandung 13bulan tuh.hakhkahka.sempat lagi tuh carut laki org.matila kena smash balik pasni.hampun nok hampun.

guys,meet Bams Samsons.

harini mak bgn hampir jam doblas apabila kedengaran hp mak bedering lagu Helena dr MCR.owh Kak Fara rupe2nye.mak pun kontrol la sore kunun2nye dh bgn awal lagi.ntah la kantoi ke tak sore br bgn tedo tuh.kak Fara meminta tolong mak utk memotong bekalan gas air dan letrik rumah nye memandangkan dia dah keluarga akan kembali ke M'sia hujung bulan ini.*matila ayat karangan bahasa Melayu.sbb susah sgt over the phone plus condition mak yg masih mamai.so mak pun menawarkan diri utk ke rumah nya sahaja pd sebelah ptg.ok.then dlm kul 145 mak pun menapak la ke rumah nya.then tolong setel kan benda2 tuh & jadi nanny kejap utk anak2 dia sementara dia mengemas sikit2.by 6 pm baru mak balik ke rumah dan bersiap2 nak ke dinner party mlm ni kat restoren Pakistan yg kitorg slalu pegi tuh.

di situ mak bertemula junior mak yg baru pulang dari M'sia tuh.oke.mak duduk dgn dia n 3 other juniors.encik A encik P dan encik S(ni bukan laki mak tau..sorg lg S..junior plg kecik).si S dok kt belakang mak.so mak dok membelakangi dia la.skali skala semasa dok begurau senda dgn ahli meja mak ni..mak curik2 la pandang belakang mak.gigihkan mak.lepas je makan mak jln2 la jumpa tetamu lain kan.tapi mak x sggah pun meja dia.mak saja wat kekwat mlm ni.uolss tau kan kisah kamera baru mak ni.ada skali tu dia dtg la nk tgk kamera baru mak.mak ltk je atas meja then mak lari ke meja panjang kt belakang di mana famili2 bersantap.*matila ayat2 istana nak pakai jugak nih.by the time mak balik ke meja mak dia dh duduk kt meja dia balik.

kemdian organizer yg juga rakan satu batch dgn mak dtg la nk discuss pasal kutipan duit so mak pun kutip la duit dr ahli meja mak ni.then p bagi kt organizer yg kebetulan dok skali ngan si S.tetiba si S tnya:Bayar utk sumer ke.mak glelng kpale wat kekwat.motif dia tnya camtu seolah2 nk bermanja ngan mak pulak.mak ni pon plik..kdg2 desperet kdg2 cold hearted.ntahla labu mak pun tatau.mak bingung.

lps bayar sumer kitorg lepak kt luar posing2 amik gamba kenangan.mak plak ngan kamera baru yg ringan nih gatal2 la snap gamba2 dia bebanyak.yerla dia ader je kamera ..x pernah bwk.mak pasan dia pasan mak dok snap gmba dia.mak wat tatau je.kdg2 mak pasan dia tgk mak.kdg2 dia pasan mak dok tenung dia.mcm biasala lps tu masing2 wat tatau.ntahla..mak stress sgt jumpa dia.mcm2 dok bermain di pikiran mak.hmmmm*sigh*

btw..saper kt bawah tu..Biarlah Rahsia.

i masak nasi lemak & ayam goreng rempah harini utk makan tghari dgn dia.dahla lama i x masak nasi lemak.dan dia bukan la jenis org yg suka meminta.kalo i ajak dia makan, i akan tnya dia nak makan apa..nasi ke pasta.harini mak masak nasi lemak sbb i rasa dah lama dia x makan nasi lemak yg proper dgn sambal ikan bilis + telur rebus + timun + kropok ikan.dia bukan reti pun nak masak sambal.cili kering pun xde.dan i buat ayam goreng rempah sekali..2 peha utk dia dan 2 kepak utk i.i x suka peha.dia pun tau.so dia mmg amik peha.lunch macam biasa.x la macam last week yg sunyi sepi.dia bwk apple juice.i mmg suka apple juice.dia ckp harini mebbe x jadi p beli digicam.dia nak tolong org angkt barang for shipping.i merajuk skit..bukan nk ckp awal2.dia ckp esok.i balas okela esok pun.dia balik lepas tgk skit Vanished sbb dah janji angkt barang.dlm kul 1.40 pm dia balik.

around 2.15 dia call,tnya nak g beli digicam x.lori x sampai lagi so bole p beli digicam.sampai sana dlm 2.40.dah puas belek2 so beli olympus kt bwh tu.dia tolong pilih kaler(ade 3 kale je..silver/oren/biru..dia kata biru,i pun suka biru tu) lepas tuh hilang ntah kemana.geram ngan dia.

walaupun rasa dh sedia to let go but bila jumpa dia tgk wajah dia rasa xleh.walaupun dia seolah olah xde perasaan or bebuat x paham.and i...i jenis nak melekat je ngan laki..so masalah la.i suka merajuk and dipujuk.penah sekali i masak,i tnya abah i sedap x..dia kata ayam tu goreng ranggup skit baru masuk kuah lagi sedap kot..i dah muncung.i balas dh resepi dia mcm tu ..org wat la camtu.see..prangai i mmg camtu.merajuk 24 jam.sebbaik famili i memahami.

haa...*sigh

esok jumpa dia lagi.ada farewell party utk famili yg nk balik next wik.btw tadi chat ngan awek junior i.i mention lunch dgn S.dia dah paham i suke S.sedangkan ni 1st time i mention pasal S kat die.senangkan.naper susah sgt bg si S ni utk paham.mebbe si S  ;saja buat x paham.yerla it's waayyy toooo complicated.ntahla..

i bought a new digicam today.been searching for Casio Exilim Card S-600 but not available at the store i went with him.so i bought an Olympus μ710 instead.i had been using Finepix 710 before this but i left it at my home in Malaysia.been using it for 3 years.ladies and gents..meet my new sweetheart(one of)...

dia tolong pilih kaler then pastu ntah hilang ke mana.geram tau shopping ngan dia.slalu hilang.

veggies & chicken casserole

1 chicken breast--cubed and cooked

1 stick carrot

2 medium potatoes

1 floret broccoli

1 tbspoon butter or margarine

3 tbspoon all purpose flour

500 ml milk

black pepper and salt to taste

100 gm cottage cheese

1.cut carrot,potato and broccoli to bite size chunck then microwaved at high for 2mins.bole juge kalo nak celur/rebus tapi jangan sampai lembik sgt ye.

2.to prepare the sauce:melt the butter/margarine in sauce pan.put in the flour and stir till the flour become a mixture.add in 100ml milk and stir continuosly while pouring in the milk.when thickens,pour the mixture into a blender,add in the remaining milk and blend the mixture till creamy.then pour the mixture back into the sauce pan.add in pepper and salt.wait till slightly boil and a lil bit thick.remove from stove.

3.in a casseole dish.mix everything in:the veggies+chicken+sauce+cot tage cheese.bake 30min at 180C.

*good as side dish.serve with green salad.

semalam mak konferens dengan kawan baik mak cik Eton dan cik Anie.diorg adalah kawan mak sejak sekolah lagi.mak penah sekelas dengan diorg from F2-F3.after that mak ikut aliran Bio diorg amik Teknikal.so kitorg berpisah kelas la.tapi tetap kawan.mak mmg berkawan baik dgn cik Eton..dialah tmpt mak mengadu masalah semua..diorg ni..cik Eton dan cik Anie berasal dari Perak..cik Eton from Bagan Serai then moved to Taiping.cik Anie plak from Manjung..dua-dua anak cikgu.mak lak anak jati kedah.btw kitorg SBP kt kedah.alah bebudak sakit jiwa.*opsss...masa skolah lagi mak kinda seriau dgn cik Anie.yerla dia bak Ibu Singa baru beranak..mak pulak ala2 anak rusa baru nak reti berjalan*feeling2 ayu.cam sialll.tapi mak dia mmg idola mak.dia mmg stret fowed..xde nak tapis2 dah.lancar je kuar mulut dia apa2 yg dia rasakan perlu.mmg speak her mind very well.*matila mak kalo dia kata salah tu.

diorg ni jelah yg mak mmg keep in touch after skolah.anyway diorg satu U but berbeza kos.so mak selalu la jumpa diorg masa mak kt UM dulu.kua2 makan etc.then lepas mak dtg jepun pun..mak x lost contact ngan diorg.everytime mak balik mak akan luangkan masa utk jumpa diorg.but lately mak jarang jumpa cik Anie..bz dgn laki katanya.tapi mak tetap jumpa besfren mak cik Eton tu dgn laki dia en. Zul.walaupun kitorg terpaksa la berlakon ayu di depan dia..walhal kt YM haruslah berdetak dentum bilik masing2 dgn ayat2 vasst dan gelak ketawa.sebbaik jiran mak si Jepun nih x kisah mak gelak ngilai2 tgh2 malam.kau ado?

so masa konferens nih mak dah cik Eton pun guna la bahsa vasst nih..membuatkan cik Anie terpinga2 kejap.dan haruss la dia tekejut dgn kelaseran mulut mak kan.ngalahkan Tok Guru katanya.mak laser di alam maya je nok.in real life mak berbudi pekerti sopan santun gitu.sampaikan besfren mak cik Eton menego..Eh B,ko x rasa mulot ko cukup hazab ke..mak tekejut uolls..mak sudah berjaya.*matila berjaya mempraktikan hikmat laser peringkat 8 katanya.

masa konferens ni kitorg pun beceritala..dari cik Eton mengeluarkan 2 resepi vasst nye(klik kt link under Ton kat sebelah for the recipe yer) sampai la cik Anie bersiap2 nk tedo kul 1130.awal btul pompuan itu tedo.tidur itu indah katanya.cik Anie malam ni pulang dr opis dah terhidang dinner katanya.laki dah masak.mak jeles uolls..rajin skals laki dia masak.laki mak potong ayam pun x reti tau..padahal dah 3 thn dok Jepun nih.*opsss..matila mak carut laki sendiri.

well mak sempatla ngadu ngan Eton mak nak cari laki baru.mak dah sedia nak let go si S nih.mak dah tired and fedup ngan dia..x reti2 bahsa.btw mak dah ada calon.tapi dia M'sia uolls..x penah jumpa lagi.matila nak tggu lagi 6 bulan baru nk jumpa kan.tu pun kalo mak sempat balik.anyway calon nih understand what i want i understand what he want  so xla mak berada dalam teka-teki selama 2tahun kan.mak penat menunggu.

btw..esok lusa junior feveret mak akan tiba dari M'sia.mak rasa girang uollss.mak mmg suka sgt ngan dia nih..perfect lah katanya(pliss refer my past entry about him).masa balik M'sia haritu dia bwk awek dia skali joined me and my fren lunch kt Kajang.mak rasa terharu skali.mak ada gakla chat ngan awek dia 2-3 kali lps mak balik Jepun nih.orgnya sangat kiut n sweet.kecik comey lotey.kalo mak x tau yg junior mak ni 3 beradik semua boys..mmg mak akan ingat tu adik dia tau.and awek dia nih amat sporting skali.mak sempat chat ngan dia gak semalam.dia puji mak cantik dan pandai masak.trus mak verangan ayu 3 minit gitu.then dia mintak diri sbb laki dia..si junior mak tuh dh call katanya.mak suker lak pompuan itu.owhh..seblom itu mak ad chat kejap ngan junior mak ni.mak bgtau ngan dia jgn tekejut ngan cara penulisan mak sejak mak dr M'sia nih.dia balas nnti dia baca bila dh balik sini.mak gugup lah ngan reaksi dia nnti bila baca blog mak yg mak rasa dah gile skit nih.

Searching
By Cathy Denny 7/99

ntah lupa nk tulis ape..tp dh janji kan..so here i am.ptg td dpt email from Apple Japan.nih konten die:

sentap!sentap!bcoz i alredi bought the previous version.pastu the latest version nye price pun dh turun..4GB=black n white 2GB.pastu kalerful lak tuh.plus nipis lagi.and the new shuffle is adorable.kecik and kiut.tulah tegedik2 nak beli awal dulu kan.anyway i love my black Sid(i named my iPod nano Sid..after the tragic Sid Vicious..nak tau naper..adela.nanti i citer k.)to che Eton yg tgh baca..geram kan.

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what i feel about him.....*matila nak buat entry jugak tapi xde idea katanya*matila kena carut ngadu byk keje tp malas buat katanya

nothing much happened today.went to school.did an experiment.bla bla bla boring boring boring.it suppose to be a very busy and hectic week for me.but i still rilekkkkkk.giler byk benda x prepare lagi utk the big presentation tapi masih dok rilek giler..pesal nih?by 19th i have to submit the 'youshi' or the summary.then have to prepare the big poster.erkkk.

by the way..nk sgt promot satu siri nih.sbb byk siri2 kegemaran blom mula lagi...cuma ada prison break je yg dh mula the 2nd season..so i donlod lah siri nih:

Vanished
Series Premiere Monday, August 21 9/8c

Sara Collins is gone. But before the FBI can solve the mystery of where she is, they first need to figure out who she really is.

SARA (Joanne Kelly, “Whiskey Echo”) is the beautiful young wife of prominent Georgia Senator JEFFREY COLLINS (John Allen Nelson, “24”), and she has gone missing. Through the eyes of Senior FBI Agent GRAHAM KELTON (Gale Harold, “Queer as Folk,” “Martha Behind Bars”), ambitious reporter JUDY NASH (Rebecca Gayheart, “Nip/Tuck,” “Harvard Man”) and the distraught members of the Collins family, viewers will journey inside a sensational, mysterious national soap opera.

And there is much more going on here than it seems on the surface.

Kelton, working with Agent LIN MEI (Ming-Na, “ER”), uncovers enigmatic clues that suggest Sara’s disappearance may be part of a large, sinister conspiracy. Closer to home, Jeffrey and Sara’s dutiful son MAX (John Patrick Amedori, “Nip/Tuck,” “House”) is keeping secrets of his own, while his rebellious sister MARCY (Margarita Levieva) is on the verge of eloping with her boyfriend BEN (Chris Egan, “Empire”), whose motives are questionable. All the while, Judy and her young cameraman/boyfriend ADAM PUTNAM (Robert Hoffman, “She’s the Man”) attempt to capture every twist and turn of the biggest story in their careers.

The search for Sara not only exposes one of the nation’s most prominent families, but it also uncovers evidence that could rock the very foundation of American society. In VANISHED, nothing is as it seems. Everyone is a suspect. Everyone has a secret. And no one is safe.

Created by Josh Berman (“CSI: Crime Scene Investigation”) and directed by executive producer Mimi Leder (“The Peacemaker,” “Deep Impact”), VANISHED combines the investigative twists and turns of “CSI,” the nonstop pace and tension of FOX’s “24” and the scope of “The Da Vinci Code.” This intriguing new series will reveal new clues each week. But as the characters get closer to the truth, they will become targets themselves.

Paul Redford (“The Unit,” “The West Wing”) serves as executive producer. VANISHED is produced by 20th Century Fox Television.

yes.dah promot dulu(sila skrol down oke) tapi nak promot lagi sbb i kinda like the plot.maybe i shud promot it to him also.last year i promot prison break ngan supernatural.tapi dia kata supernatural xde 'kick'.aah.i donlod becoz that cute Jared Padalecki je.hehhehe.

went to a movie--X Men 3---with him.dia ajak.sempat lunch skali.lunch sunyi sepi.he did the questioning..i only answer:umm,kot,ntah,aa.sombong kan.tapi dia mcm biasa..buat seolah olah nothing happened.to be honest..rasa bedebar tadi.nasi sesenduk rasa macam seperiuk.lama sangat nak abiskan.at one time..rasa nk stop makan n buang je nasik tuh.

on the way to cinema pun..senyap sunyi je.picked up a friend on the way.jeling jeling kt dia through the rear view mirror.dia prasan.so i buat2 x tau.tgk tmpt lain.then i chatted with our friend.not a single word with him.sat next to him in the cinema.chatted a lil bit.sempat kua beli air for us..Ginger Ale..our fave.i guessed my heart melted again.

on the way back home.dropped our friend.i asked him what's been happening since i left for holiday.catching up with each other's life for the past month.one of the line....

me:aper tuh(sambil tunjuk sesuatu kt depan dashboard)

him:takkan tatau kot(grinning at me)

me:tak

him:air freshener(sambil senyum2 )

me:o

he missed my simpang.i pat him on the peha.dia ckp alamak.ntah ape yang dia pikir.boleh missed my simpang.we U turned.he dropped me at my apartment.i said gudbye and saw him leaving.i know..i cant see him.once i saw him.all the feeling will come back to haunt me...that 'I LOVE HIM'..that 'I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HIM'...that 'I WANT TO BE WITH HIM EVERY SECOND'.those feeling that i've been trying to refrain last month when i was in my kampung.

from now..i want to be the best i can be with him.

sid,je ne peux pas vivre sans vous

cinta...........

mak benci! uols, mak benci! mak benci diri mak.mak sudah nekad tidak mahu lagi jatuh.tapi mak jatuh jugak uols.jatuh apa tatau..jatuh chenta la nyeh.kisahnya begini:

ptg td ada seorang akak ni buat kenduri.mak berbelah bahagi nak pegi or tanak.tghari td mak pegi beli groceries utk minggu nih ngan kawan mak.diorg tnyala mak nk pegi kenduri ngan sapa.mak kata xtau lagi..tp mak rasa mcm x mau p.tp mak kesian la plak kat akak tu.lama dah mak x jumpa dia sejak dia balik malaysia sat..lepaih tu mak pun balik jugak.on the way nak ke supermarket tuh..si anak ikan yg mak jatuh hati ni tetiba call mak..tnya nak pi ngan dia ke x.dia nak mai amik kt umah katanya.mak kata tgkla.mak sebenarnya dengaq aja ring tone My Immortal from Evanescence tuh(dia saja yg mak set ring tone My Immortal tuh) mak rasa berat hati sgt nk angkat.tapi kawan mak kt ada kt sebelah..nnti dia ingt pelik plak awat mak x angkat call tu.mak pun angkat la.dah smpai kt supermarket tuh mak SMS dia(si anak ikan) balik habaq kata mak x p ngan dia..mak p ngan orang len.

Lepaih shopping barang dapur semua...mak shopping barang nak masak utk kawan mak ni n family dia sebab depa dah nak balik Malaysia ujung bulan ni.masing2 shopping lama katanya..sampai umah kenduri depa dh baca smpai setengah dah surah Yasin tu.tudia punya lambat kami sampai.tapi ada lagi yg lambat tau.dah abih Yasin tahlil segala tiba la masa makan.akak tu masak nasi minyak sapi+kari daging+ayam masak merah style cina+acar buah.mak sebagai wanita mithali menolong la mana patut..angkat2 lauk semua kat tetamu2.lepaih tuh mak dok la ngan kaum wanita sembang2 gosip2 skit...lama x jumpa la katakan.mak balik kampung sebulan.lepaih tuh masing2 bz ngan anak suami bagai susah la nak jumpa kan.mak pula bz ngan skolah.

dalam masa dok beramah mesra makan minum tuh mak sedaq la jugak dia dok tgk mak.mmg pandang sunggoh sunggoh ni..tp mak wat kekwat ja uols.mak x pandang muka dia langsung.infact mak saja duduk membelakangkan dia sepanjang majlis sbb xmau tgk muka dia.last2 mak tertengok jugak.dah tgk skali x puaih la uols..mak curi2 pandang dia 2-3 kali.yerla dah sebulan lebih x jumpa katanya.sepanjang sebulan lebih tuh..mak mmg x sms/call dia langsung.tgk gambaq pun dak ni.haaa..gigih x mak uols nk lupakan dia.haa ni mak lupa nak habaq...akak tu buat chocake utk dessert.mak teringat plak kat dia ..dia suka chocake uols*haa..mak feeling kenangan terindah lagi.kalo ada apa2 event..mak mmg buat chocake sbb dia..plus puding2 lain.yerla kan asyik2 chocake plak..org len bosan la plak kan.plus kita kena la tnjuk kita pndai masak bgai..baru laku uolsss.

dah dok tengok2 dia tuh mak cair balik uols.mak dh nekad xmau amik kisah apa pun pasai dia nih.tetiba semua prasaan marah mak kt dia hilang.mak prasan dia baru gunting rambut..amk rasa sbb mak balik sini so dia gunting la kot..nk jumpa mak gitu*tudia mak dok prasan sorg2..matila mak di cop ratu prasan setiap minit katanya.dia ngan junior2 kitorg yg nek keta dia balik awai.mak balik lambat skit.

malam...mak masak dinner utk kawan mak n famili dia yg nk balik tanahair nih(tudia ayat dewan bahasa dan pustaka).mak masak Penne with Salmon in Tomato Cream Sauce+Veggies & Chicken Casserole+Salad.mak teragak2 nak ajak dia ka x mau.tp bila dah masak tuh rasa mcm byk la pulak.mak ajak kawan mak yg lain.kebetulan kawan mak ni nak p umah dia lepaih dinner umah mak.dia nak p tgk bola.bola dah setat awai tp sbb nk mai dinner mak dia p lambat skit umah si anak ikan tuh.mak tatau apa yg mak pikiaq.hati mak dok kata jgn jgn..tapi tgn mak dah dok bubuh left over dinner tuh dlm tupperware utk di kirim kt dia.mak benci sgt uols.mak tatau apa yg menguasai diri mak masa tuh.mak bagi left over tuh kt kawan mak soh bagi kt dia.

mak:bagila kat dia

kawan mak:uish rajin sunngoh ko tapau lagi.mesti dia tekejut dpt nih.

mak diam membisu(tudia dah diam..membisu pulak.ayat apa nehhh).15 minit lepaih tuh mak SMS kawan mak ni soh dia bgtau S(si anak ikan yg mak dok gila meroyan tuh) soh dia panaskan dulu...bagi cheese atas casserole tuh melt.kalo dia nk sejuk ikot ska dia la.tudia uols..mak tau kawan mak tu dh smapai umah si S nehh..umah kami dekat saja.nek gerek 10minit x smpai.mak saja x SMS si S nih.mak xmau direct kontek ngan dia.mesti kawan mak rasa pelik..sbb sblm nih mak wat x berminat saja bila dia sebut pasai S tu.tetiba arini siap tapau food lagi...Italian uolss*matila mak perasan Chef Wan no.2....hehhehe.

dlm mak dok taip entry ni..tetiba mak dpt SMS..it's from him.ajak mak tgk X-Men esok.uolss..kt Jepun nih wayang dia lembap..org dh tgk 1000x..kt sini baru nk ada.hanjengkan sinema Jepun nih..nk perap muvi wat pekasam.mak venci.mak dah tgk dah X-men tu..mak dl intenet.mmg la gelap bagaikan....nama pon Pirate:Steal from the Cinema katanya.mak x reply lagi pon SMS dia uols.mak saja nk wat kekwat ngan dia.mak plan nk SMS bgtau kawan mak sorg lagi...yg dok kt umah dia tgh tgk bola skrg ni.bertambah heran la kawan mak tuh tatau apa yg dok terjadi antara kami..hakhakhak.tp mak rasa dia tau mak suka S.mak slalu pi mana2 ngan S dulu.seblom S ada keta mak nek ngan dia sbb umah kami dekat plus kitorg satu batch.lepas s ada keta mmg mak nek ngan dia p mana pon.*matila mak feeling dating dlm keta katanya.kadang mak naik keta kawan mak ni dia mesti plik.awat x naik dgn S.tp dia x penah tnya pon.

ntahla la uols.mak nk p tgk x-men ka x.mak mmg suk skals ...sat dia call...mak silap tekan butg uolss...mesti dia ingt mak saja x mau angkt.mampuih p la.kalo dia call lagi tnya awat x angkt mak nk habaq mak x dgr...henset dok dlm beg.

cemana uolss..patutkah mak rujuk balik ngan dia nih?*matila perasan kena cerai talak satu katanya..jadi janda sat sebulan.

to be honest mak rasa nk buat plan ni.kt wallpaper henset mak skrg ada gambaq jantan..hemsem..anak ikan jugakla.mak jumpa dalam myspace.mak saja nak buat2 tunjuk gmbaq tu kt dia pastu bila dia tnya mak nk ckp:adala..pesal nk tau?.kekwat x uolss..playing hard to get with a man hard to get..very the berani mati kannn!!

mak buntu uolss mak buntu..mak tau.dan mak sentiasa ingat kata2 hikmat ibu ratu Imah

BERCINTA DGN JANTZZ DINCH KEKAL

tapi mak soooo fragile uolss..dialah segalanya bagi mak.dialah MY IMMORTAL

well..actually i'm damn sure that i'm 1/8 Siamese.hakhakhak.but cannot speak Siam lor..

kinda stuck to Beyonce's Deja Vu & Nelly Furtado's Promiscuous lately.it give strength...to be bold and 'thumb off b***h' kinda feeling.hakhakhak.malas dh nk dgr lagu liuk lentok..cinta cintun....sakit hati.hehhehe.for now slutty songs are the new theme.

btw.back to school today.and everyone was there.semalam ada 2 org jer.macam biasa i wat bodoh sombong untalkative bunny as always.yep i mmg sombong.hakhakhak.that's the 1st impression i gave to most people when they met me...mostly to guys.lainla if i know them from someone so i xla senyap jek.it's kinda my motto from waaaay back.to set up myself so high that no one can reach me.to avoid being interogate by strangers.hakhkahak.very bad ass attitude right.so jgn tiru.ok..back to school.the latest and working experimental apparatus finally been installed by my sensei while i was happy sleep-eat-sleep back then in my kampung.so start from tommorow it gonna be a really busy month for me.yg best nye..esok dh jumaat so leh la rilek on Sat & Sun.boleh ker?plan nk ajak Kak Fara & family yg dh nk balik ujung bulan ni for dinner kot.nexwik diorg dh anta keta so this wiken will be the last wiken they still have keta.so wat to cook?memandangkan diorg dh nk balik so i'm thinking italian.and chocake for desert..hmm wait.chocake's too much kenangan.hakhakhak.*sempat feeling2 lagi nih*matilah mak kena cop ratu 'kenangan yang terindah' katanya.tudia ayat akak2 kluaq dah.hakhakhak..

skrg mood nk dok umah je.dah balik dekat seminggu dah tp most of the time dok umah je.dh emel sensei ckp nk g skolah arini but xde mood sgt..so ponteng tanpa inform apa2 pun.btw sakit gigi 2-3 hari ni..td pun sakit lg..malas sgt nk ke dentist.sejak jumaat lepas dok umah je x kua lansung.esok kena la g skolah.aperlah reaksi bebudak lab tu aa..lama sgt cuti.

2-3 hari ni dok baca blog je.ada 2 blog nih yg mmg best.sbb writing dia mmg best..ada happy ada comedy ada sad stories...lengkap la.it kinda give me hope.a world i never knew exist and the world i wish i never terjerumus in.ntah..it's too complicated.my world is waaay too complicated.

lepas balik M'sia for a month haritu rasa cam malas nk dok sini lama2.April 2008 baru leh balik for good.i'm too depressed here.ngan skolah ngan dia.i need a new start n a new place.i really hope Shah Alam (from April 2008) will be a good start.i want to forget everything...no not everything.i just want to forget HIM.maybe at a new place i'll meet someone.i still didnt met him.no phone calls no photos no everything related to him.and i even did not clicked soccernet for few days.plus there were no EPL games last wiken.from now on i'll make effort not to see him.yes.i'm gonna be so damn bsy this month preparing for the big presentation.i think i even have to skip the Farewell Party for Kak Fara n family.i mean the big farewell party we usually throw for frens who completed their study and returned to M'sia.maybe i'll invite them for a dinner someday.

dah 2-3 hari balik ke Japan tapi malas sgt nk updet.skolah pun x jejak lagi.*matila kena carut ngan sensei nanti..hakhakahk.suka lak guna ayat 'akak-akak' nih.

hai...dah balik kampung dulu rasa malas sgt nk balik sini semula.malas nk balik ke lab ngan exp n research tuh.malas nk balik n jumpa dia tuh.sakit hati je kekadang.sampai skrg x bgtau dia dh balik sini dah.haritu beli brg dapur pun ajak org lain.online YM pun ngan dia je stealth status 'permanently offline'.ntahla malas la ngan budak x matang nih.tipula kalo x ingt dia langsung masa kt M'sia dulu.*sigh..

masa balik haritu ada la jumpa sorg budak yg umah dia dkt ngan umah nenek i.infact sekelas pun ngan abng dia masa skolah rendah pun.masa kecik2 dulu slalu gakla dok lepak umah dia.x snagka lak thn ni balik nmpk dia cute lak.btw dia klasmet adik i dulu.muda 4 thn.hakhakhak.pesal la i suker sgt budak2 nih.budak nih mmg senyap baik je..x dgr citer org komplen2 dia.skrg dia wat bisnes pomen kt ngan umah dia.

i balik kampung mmg style teperap kt umah x klua mana2.but ada satu hari tuh i pegi umah nenek n then nenek ajak g umah dia sbb diorg ade wat birthday party utk anak klasmet i.(klasmet i dah kawen-anak 1).so xkan la nak dok umah sorg2 kan..so kena la ikot gak w/pun berat ati.so terjumpa budak ni kt ctu.sblm ni x pernah kesah pun kewujudan dia.muka dia cina2 skit..puteh.

kdg2 i rasa senang lak ngan budak kampung x belaja tggi ni.life x komplikated.kalo boleh i nak soh dia masuk meminang je.hahahaah..sebbaik xleh.pastu leh sentapkan ati abng dia yg gatal tuh.(btw pakcik i kawen aritu so i pun g la kenduri belah pompuan kt Perak tuh n pakcik i ajak la diorg(mamat ni n abg dia) ikut skali.pastu kt sana ada lak abg dia ajk i amik gmba kt pelamin tuh...GILEERRR APERRR).dh kawen anak 1 pun gatal.maybe dia saja nk usik2 kot.

sbb kdg2 i pk maybe lagi senang kot kalo br nk kenal dr dah kenal sgt2 nih..menyakitkan hati.patutla org dulu2 kawen atur..bila dh kawen baru berchenta.baru nk kenal hati budi.skrg nih dh berchenta awal2..kdg2 dh nk beranak baru kawen.pastu x kemana pon.org dulu2 smpai bongkok 3 masih kekal.skrg anak x abis skolah rendah lagi ada yg dh becerai.

pesal entry bab kawen2 nih?hehhehe.balik haritu byk sgt kenduri kawen smpai 2-3 tmpt satu hari pun ada.pastu besfren i pun dh nk bertunang n ada yg dh bertunang dlm senyap pun ada.tau kapel bulan 3,bulan 7 dah bertunang.pastu x bg tau sesapa lak tuh.i was the only person.tu pun selepas 2-3 mggu dh bertunang.even org opis pun tatau.when she told me over the phone last 3 weeks i was like HAH!! WHAT!! tekejut giler.sbb kitorg mmg x pernah diskus about men.and dia lak jenis cool jer...yerla org tggi lawa bak model kan..xyah cari org.tggu je org brani ke x nk masuk line.hehhe.encik basten kalo dpt teka sapa jgn citer kt org lain tau.not to any soul.x kire kt cni ke or kt m'sia.ada gakla our frens kt cni tnya i about her love life but i said nothing.citer pasal dia dh ada spesel fren bulan 3 dulu pun i x bgtau sesapa.maybe kawen next year kot..so xleh la nk p kenduri dia.pastu my besfren pun plan nk kawen next year gak.so xleh la p jugak.dh masuk keja kt cni susah la nk balik.kalo kt m'sia bleh je amik cuti ke.dah kt cni,xkan la nk balik 2 hari on weekend.tu pun kalo kenduri jatuh on weekend kan.sedeh lak membe2 baik ni nk kawen.cam kena tggal sorg2.yelah org dh kawen..pompuan lak tu susah la nk ajak kua shopping ke jln minum2 ke.kena bwk laki diorg gak.but i'm very happy for both of them:Atun and AZ sbb dh jumpa the one.

dahla esok lusa lak.dh ngantuk nih.dah 2-3 hari tedo lmbt sbb abiskan tgk citer yg x dl masa blk aritu.btw ada satu series bes:Vanished

About 'Vanished'

Sara Collins is the lovely young wife of prominent Georgia senator Jeffrey Collins -- and she's disappeared. But before the authorities can solve the mystery of her where-abouts, they first have to figure out who she really is. FBI Agents Graham Kelton and Lin Mei uncover clues that suggest Sara's disappearance may be linked to a larger, more sinister conspiracy. Naturally, reporter Judy Nash is on their tail.

Starring: Gale Harold, John Allen Nelson, Joanne Kelly, Rebecca Gayheart, Margarita Levieva, John Patrick Amedori, Chris Egan, Ming Na, Josh Hopkins, Penelope Ann Miller, Esai Morales, Robert Hoffman, Eddie Cibrian

fresh episod every monday.