HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007

Lovesong
The Cure
(Disintegration)

Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am home again.
Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am whole again.

Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am young again.
Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am fun again.

However far away,
I will always love you.
However long I stay,
I will always love you.
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you;
I will always love you.

Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am free again.
Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am clean again.

However far away,
I will always love you.
However long I stay,
I will always love you.
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you;
I will always love you.

it's aidiladha today.woke up early.went to solat raya.cooked kurma daging for brunch.had small raya celebration at junior's.oke now..lets talk about new year.it's been a wonderful(?) year.lots of ups and downs.for 2007 this is my resolution:

1. be a good person to my family,frens,and peps around me.(i am a good person btw.opss)
2. quit smoking for good(he saw me smoked for the 1st time today..and i dont even care)
3. quit investing too much 'feeling' in 'someone'.*feel free to slap me on the bontot if i do mention him again in my writing (that i doubt i have time for---gonna be busy with workloads)
4. be as cheerful as i can---no more tears.they dont deserve it.
5. avoid buying too many shoes---start saving for real.
6. dont wanna be so MEROYAN anymore.cukuplah..dah tua pun.opss.
7. tell him everything/try to forget about everything.

yesterday was a friends's bday.i brought a cake---Orange cake with custard & cream frosting.found an amazing recipes of crea m custard for pies.click here.i cut the sugar to half lor.hiks.and cooked it on the stove.not double boiler.but u have to stir continuosly to avoid lumps.

hari ni mak DQ-meroyan-phoenix in flame-gunung berapi meletops sgts2.mrasa over bottled up emotions kans..hari ni bgn tedo trus explode.sumer org kene.sesapa yg kena lava2 gunung berapi yang meletop tu mak mntk mahap nah.i admit..i over sgts.btw..mlm mak buat pojek nasi lemak cam biasa.it was just OK.maybe i shud prepare everything myself instead of soh junio2 mak bwk something to the table.mlm skit mak saja2 kua pegi umah junior lain plak.lawatan muhibbah katanya.makan lagi kt umah diorg.kurma ayam & ikan masam manis courtesy of perencah maggi.opss.kul 12 lebih baru balik umah.

hari ni mak nak huplod pics desert on xmas eve and my new boots.it's 80% off.i'll post the recipe for the choccake later at here ok.

Boots

 

it's a sad sad day.sudahlah mak nangis berkoyan koyan tgk citer CINTA tuh.*KB mak kata x woman kalo x nanges.terpaksala mak potong bawang sambil tgk kans.opss.fantasi sajalah sundels.koser nak hiris bawang bagai.cukup lah sekadar membasahkan tisu selai dua amik2 syarat2.*matila hipokrit.btw..i did cry oke?.walaupun xdelah teresak2 sampai xleh nak bernafas.citer dia mmg best.time kasih kepada org yg share kt torrent tu.muahss.

mak mengalir airmata lagi bila mak dpt tau sorg ni yg mak betul2 ingt kawan mak ttbe backstabbing.mak mmg x sangka.mak mmg x sangka.but we never know kan hati budi org.maybe dia x sengaja..sapa tau.tapi hati mak dah x sama macam dulu lagi bila pk pasal dia.ramai yg citer ngan mak how their frens bad-mouthed them at their back but menten senyum paling manis kat depan.mak ingt hanya cerita dongeng sume tu.sampai lah terjadi kt mak sendiri.now i know cemana rasa betrayed.ah biar lah dia.mak bukan malaikat ..dia bukan syaiton.ah biarlah Allah je yang judge kan.btw..sgt2 terkilan oke.x pernah terlintas di hati...walau sebesar zarah yg dia buat camtu.im ok now.mak masih lagi ada KB2 mak..Aton,Che Anie,Edi..rakan2 alam maya mak terutama Eleen di Paris,Bedah etc.tak dilupakan en.khambeng dan istri.serta senior2 mak.*matila dah jadik ucapan ala2 sampaikan aidilfitri pulak.

btw..i went window shopping yesterday.alkisahnya nak tgk2 bag kt Coach and Fendi.berkenan dgn satu carryall kt Caoch yg cantik.seswai sgts tuk bussinesswoman.btw..did i told u mak ngan KB mak nak buat bisnes start next year.doakan kami berjaya nah.walaupun mak jauh di sini mak tetap bg sokongan tak berbelah bahagi ngan kau noks.bila mak dah balik nanti mak tolong yer.dan mak sempat jugek beli satu boot kaler dark chocolate heel 6cm woven yg diskaun 70%.nanti mak letak pics so korg bole caruts.opss.cam tau jekan.btw here's the Coach carryall bag...bukan kaler pink yer.koser i nak obses ngan kaler pink.mak nak beli kaler hitam or brown.

it's christmas eve.i cooked dinner.here's the menu:

1. Crab Salad in Croissant
2. Salmon Cream Penne
3. Green Salad with Green Apple
4. Sherperd's Pie
5. Frypan Mini Taco-Pizza
6. Choccake with ChocFudge & StrawberySanta & ChocoStrawberry
7. Ginger Ale & Sparkling Pear Tea

check the recipes for Crab Salad & Salmon Cream i posted at my frens cooking-blog.click here.btw..Bani is my alter ego.

bgn tedo dah kul 12 lebih sbb semalam feeling2 nak tgk Live match Barca-Atletico Madrid tp kul 3 lebih mak dah tedo.hiks.mrasa skrg baru mak tgk recorded match.mak suke Fernando Torres(A.Madrid) dan tidak dilupakan goalkeeper Barca,Vardes pun sgt chomel oke?!Mrasa google skrg nah.Victor Valdes Arribas.opss.fullname lagi mak bagi.sambil2 dok tggu teman sepencarutan mak online live from Paris but dinch ado pun.hey sundels mana kau dah 2 hari x online neh.hiks.plus KB mak Aton bz tahap gaban dgn job2 from Canada..Germany nyer.opss.international sgts kan.opss.so mak blog browsing jela harini sambil browse resepi utk dinner ahad nih.mak masih sangsi mak buat calzones ke nak buat pizza je..topping chicken curry oke?hiks.melayu sgts kan.KB mak Aton akan bertolak malam ni ala-ala rombongan Cik Kiah ke Langkawi utk menghadiri kenduri kawen classmate mak Cik Doraemon(sbb dia kiut ala2 Doraemon oke!).matila mak kena carutz kalo dia tau kan.hiks.suami dia ustaz.mrasa dia pose2 ustazah pasni.(Aton hang jgn habaq kt dia tau.)alkisah nya bebudak batch mak buat rombongan ke kenduri sambil2 makan angin kt Langkawi.ramai la bebudak batch mak yg join.mak jugek x merasa nak ikot kans.hanjs sgts.bukan nak kawen time mak dah balik nanti.opss.matila selfish nak soh org tggu mak balik kan.mak doakan dia dan suami bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat.dan semoga rombongan bebudak skolah mak selamat pergi dan balik.okela uols.mak pening2 lalat terlebih telan pil.pil apa tatau.opss.VIT C & B COMPLEX la sundels.ade je nak speku kans.opss.*matila sendiri tulis sendiri speku kan.hanjs.daa.lupa nak habaq the mathc ended draw Barca 1-1 A.Madrid.daaa.

You, you know how to get me so low
My heart had a crash when we spoke
I can’t fix what you broke

You, you always have a reason
Again and again this feelin’
Why do I give in?

And I always was, always was one for crying
I always was one for tears
The suns getting cold, it’s snowing
Looks like an early winter for us
Looks like an early winter for us
An early winter
Oh I need you to turn me over

It’s sad the map of the world is on you
The moon gravitates around you
The seasons escape you

And I always was, always was one for crying
I always was one for tears
No, I never was, never was one for lying
You lied to me all of these years
The sun’s gettin’ cold, it’s snowing
Looks like an early winter for us
Looks like an early winter for us
An early winter
Oh I need you to turn me over

Why?
Why do you act so stupid?
Why?
You know that I’m always right

It looks like an early winter for us
It hurts and I can’t remember sunlight
An early winter for us
The leaves are changing color for us

And it gets too much, yeah it gets so much
Starting over and over and over again
It looks like an early winter for us

what i ate almost everyday this week.rabbit's food.hik.btw..the omelette has tofu in it.

it's only a less than a week from xmas.so lets share with me ur xmas by answering this short questionaire oke.

1. what's ur favourite xmas song?--me: all i want for xmas is you by Mariah Carey & Xmas Eve by Tatsuro Yamashita(listen it here)
2. what's ur favourite xmas themed movie?--me: Dr.Seuss' How the Grinch Stole Xmas
3. what's ur favourite xmas icon?--me: Gingerbreadman
4. favourite thing to do on xmas eve?--me:eat dinner with him and close friends.Choccake with Strawberry Santa and choco ice cream for dessert + hot cocoa.this year it'll be the last sundels.nanges.
5. favourite thing to do on xmas season?--me:window shopping(xmas deco is insane)

oke that's all.mrasa jawab kat ruang komen naa.hik.

another story.i bumped into him at the supermarket today.i was happily lalalala crusing down the aisle while i suddenly saw him 5 feet away from me.my heart just stopped.i lost my breath.i felt a slight pain in the chest.so what i did---i quickly turned away.headed to the counter.pay the groceries.hastily shoved everything into my bag.looked around for him.there he was..walking to the counter.i hurriedly left for the exit then walked away.that's us pepel.that's us.we rather avoid each other than to face an awkward moment when we met each other accidently.oh maybe it just me.but..well i think we both pretend not to see.becoz..if it's not there..we i dont have to deal with it.5 feet away..he definitely saw me there.but mcm biasa he just pretend i was not there.that's make me GERAM sometimes.while walking home--a part of me want to call him but a part of me just chanting 'i hate him! i hate him! I HATE HIM! 'all the way home.but that's me.once i see him..my brain just full of him.dem i love him so muchhh.it hurts.btw..i'm seeing him this 24th.i'm cooking dinner.

woke up at 11 today.hik.i didnt drink warm milk as i said i would.or held my leg high.sori la Eleen..mak x larat nk sandar kt dinding.mak asyik gelak je masa buat tu.seswatu sgts.opss.i went to bed at 1130pm only to wake up at 220am & then my freaking brain did it's job.THINK till i got mad/fell asleep around 5(the last time i checked the clock..it was 440).hik.i cant control my brain.maybe i need sleeping pils to help me sleep.but i'll try Lavender under pillow tonite and sipping chamomile tea before going to bed.

arrived at lab at 12noon.hiks.*matila lambat sgts.org lain dtg kul 930-10.aku dtg kul 12.haruss kena CDH ngan lab mate kan.ah..mampos.today is the 2nd day of our lab bi-monthly presentation.5 pepel will present their work today.bosan lah sementara nak tggu 230pm nih.so i browse some cooking&food blogs.OMG..i'm craving for a good Char Kuey Teow now.click here & here.Both owned by Malaysian Chinese.i wish i'm in Malaysia right now so i can hunt now all those places and eat everything.hiks.yes sundels i can eat whateva i want without worry of becoming GEMOK.matila kekwat hik.mak suke mak suke.matila badan papan plywood but perot 8 kan Aton kan.hiks.i tried Char Kuey Teow at Little Penang Cafe Midvalley but i think i love the Penang/Kedah street hawker's version more.but i do love the Jusco Midvalley Asam Laksa.savior.everytime i was back in Malaysia i didnt miss any chance to eat their Asam Laksa.Jusco Midvalley 4th floor kot.dekat bahagian pinggan mangkuk.mak lupe la sundels.mrasa mak dah leleh2 air liur nih.opss.lapar pulak asyik citer pasal makanan ni kan.daa.kembali bersiaran tonite/tomolo.daa~.nantikan ChocCake with Strawberry Santa in next entry nah.

It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing

Some kind of therapy
Is all I need
Please believe me
Some instant remedy
That can cure me completely
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;  Corinne Bailey Rae

Trouble Sleeping.Lately i had trouble sleeping.i laid at 1am just to fell asleep at 4am.and woke up at 10am..almost everyday.i cant take it anymore.i tend to think a lot when everything else shuts.no sounds..just me and my freaking brain.i thought about everything.about tommorrow.about me & him.about the next 10 years.about the news i heard in the morning.relevant and irrelevant stuffs.am i mad.i think too much.a good friend suggest Lavender under the pillow.i'll get it tommorrow after school.hope it'll work.some suggest warm milk before go to bed.i'll do it tonite.i had the bi-monthly Final Year Project's presentation today.it went OK..with some tipu sunat.*nak hidup Labu.hik.alhamdulliah.i felt like some burden had being taken off my back.so lets go shopping.opss.so i guess i could lay back for a while till next week then continue with the exps.btw.Yul won Survivor Cook Island.

comel kan dia.opss.senyuman memikat jiwa.*matikah mak.hiks.

dah sunday sundals.mrasa mak bgn kul 2pm harini.semalam tedo kul 3 lepas marathon tgk Battlestar Galactica.Helo is soo freaking cute.matila korg x kenal sapa kan.mrasa Google Karl 'Helo' Agathon NOW!.opss.hik.bgn je tedo mak tgk the newest American Pie flick:American Pie Naked Mile.OMG...lots of bre*st sundal.ah mcm mak kisah je kans.opss.mrasa sorang junior mak ni mesti suke kan.dia suka sgt citer2 teen s*x themed muvie nih.opss.walaupun realiti nya dia mmg pemalu sgts.masa dia 1st-2nd year dulu kalo jumpa mak or my female senior mesti dia buat2 x kenal.. tunduk tgk2 tanah tau.mak mcm..'Eh pesal nak memalu ngan mak.'*matila mak ferasan womanzz kan.skrg dia cam dah oke la.

lepas lunch nasi goreng kampung pakcik Seri Aji mak ke skolah utk siapkan slide for tommorow's presentation.sempat gak mak chit-chat ngan Eleen rakan alam maya mak di Paris.korg x makan hati.Paris sundals.PARIS.mak kenal Eleen from blog Bedah...seorang lagi rakan alam maya mak.i'm glad i met them walaupun hanya dia alam maya.diorg mmg baik.suddenly i realize this world is full of great pepel.korg cume kena pandai carik je.in my case blog hopping every day.matila kat lab pun blog hopping memanjang kan.experiment haram x buat.*matila pemalas.opss.GOALLLLLL.selingan jap.btw.mak tgh tgk soccer match final FIFA Club World Cup Japan 2006 between Barcelona(ESP) vs. Internacionale(BRA).Adriano from Internacionale just scored the 1st goal of the match.btw..i glanced every few minutes.koser aku nak tgk full match tau.x larat.mak lebih suke tgk highlight je..part2 goal sajork.opss.am i a diehard fan?nope.i follow soccer becoz of him.so bole la mak buat2 bimbo tnya pasal bola ngan dia kan.opss.matila pembuka bicara.plus there are full of cute men in soccer.hik.oke ref. baru je tiup wisel..it's final Internacionale won.oke lets move on.

lupa lak nak tulis hape.heh.seblom mak lupe.here's my wish list for xmas.opss.macam la ade org nak bagi hadiah pun kan.*nanges.

1. a Fendi handbag or atleast a Coach(i gonna get it myself one aneway.*matila 10bulan baru abes bayar kan)
2. a Fendi/Gucci/F.Salvatore/C.Louboutin sandal
3. a Versace Bright Crystal perfume
4. a black/gray cashmere shawl
5. him

mrasa mak kena carik laki putera raja pasni kan to get those 1st two.no.3 and 4..i can get it by myself.no.5..no comment.opss.okela sundals,daaa~.

p/s:to Eleen..if u r reading.i did warn u oke.boring stuffs.mrasa kau dah lelap kan.opss.daa

UCL Last 16 Draw

FC Porto v Chelsea

Celtic v AC Milan

PSV Eindhoven v Arsenal

Lille v Manchester United

AS Roma v Lyon

Barcelona v Liverpool

Real Madrid v Bayern Munich

Inter Milan v Valencia

me:yeay Arsenal vs. PSV Eindhoven.Man Utd (team Aton & him) will face Lille of France.btw Aton KB mak balik kampong mggu nih.mrasa mak meroyan sorg2 wiken kan.takpe mak bizi nak buat slide utk presentation on monday.walopun Aton tulis nk online tp bila dah balik kampong haruss bizi kan dgn family sumer.

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
Tongkang from Aton.becoz ur bubbly personality.sila imagine tongkang cine ditgh laut yer.opss

2. Am I lovable?--yes

3. How long have you known me?--sejak skolah.1995-2006.11thn.

4. When and how did we first meet?--bila kau masuk skolah mak/bila mak masuk kelas kau.

5. What was your first impression?--mak lupe la sundals.

6. Do you still think that way about me now?--takkot.

7. What do you think my weakness is?--mudah sentap

8. Do you have a crush on me?--nio way Jose

9. Would you kiss me?--on the cheek.mwah mwahs.*sambil laga2 pipi

10. What makes me happy?--laki kau Abob dan anak2 kau B&Beng.mak?opss.ferasan kejap.shopping.

11. What makes me sad?--bila sentap ngan membe

12. What reminds you of me?--brownies dan tomato-bulat,merah,dimple .

13. If you could give me anything what would it be?--anything u want xcept laki mak oke.

14. How well do you know me?--pretty well

15. When's the last time you saw me?--ogos 2006

16. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?--no

17. Do you think I could kill someone?--no

18. Describe me in one word.--warm

19. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?--stronger

20. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?--yes

21. Are you going to ask me back and see what I say about you? --yes.pliss.

ada apa dengan cinta.mrasa korg geledah rak cd pirate korg tgk balik citer tu kann.opss.harini mak terbabas lagi.tepat kul 953am baru bgn.there goes my plan to go to lab early today.dah sasah akan sampai k lab kul 11 gak cam selalu...mak amik keputusan utk stay at home and do my work from home je.bole golek2 minum makan sume kan.sambil BBC world news terpasang kt tv..sambil chatting ngan Aton.

okeh cerita harini.Cinta.filem Cinta ni diwar-warkan oleh Aton as must watch muvie of the year.pastu a friend told me..her chinese friend pun rekomen this muvie.that Chinese lady even bought the OST oke?mrasa best sgt kan citer ni.then harini bila mak blog hopping..mak terjumpa satu blog yg buat review about this muvie and kt situ siap ada klip from the muvie.klik here and here and here oke?mrasa 3 site sekaligus.tapi korg jgn la gatal tgn meroyan kt shout box diorg citer korg dpt link from blog mak plak.diorg x kenal mak pun..mak pun x kenal diorg.opss.lepas tu mak berchatting ngan Aton..dia pun mula review panjang lebar.btw..mak jatuh hati pandang pertama ngan watak Haris(Rashidi Ishak)..sgt hensem oke?walaupun dia dah byk berlakon dlm muvie or drama lain tp baru skrg mak sedar kewujudan dia.opss.then mak pegi Youtube search for the klip..jumpe klip lagu tema from Anuar Zain-Perpisahan.klik here.mrasa harini mak layan klip tu sampai lebam kan.opss.bila la mak nk dpt tgk citer ni ek.mrasa korg post cd pirate kat mak..voley?.hiks.

p/s:nantikan what i want for christmas entry coming soon.

Eden McCain.i want to be her.to make someone listen to me and do anything i ask.